Sunday, June 17, 2012

Don & Margot

Growing up, my dad was always pretty strict with me. I'm an only child, but that didn't matter. I think that made him even harder on me, in a way. I had chores - tough ones too - like dragging out the garbage every week and yardwork. I was expected to get good grades. Manners were enforced times a million. We had some contention as I got into my teen & college years - we disagreed quite a lot about politics and bickered so much that my mom refused to take vacations with us anymore. Despite all that, my dad was always the first person I'd turn to when I needed advice. He still is (sorry CB). And he can always, ALWAYS, calm me down, no matter what the situation. He can be calm and sensible when I get anxious and stressed. I wouldn't consider him a calming person in general, but he knows how to talk me down like no one else.

I don't know what I was expecting from him when Margot was born. Secretly, I was most disappointed she wasn't a boy on my dad's behalf. He's always been interested in things like trains and planes and military history, things I didn't particularly care for growing up. I wanted him to be able to share that with a boy. I knew he would love my little girl, but I didn't think they would have the same relationship they would've had if I had a boy instead.

But Margot and my dad are best friends. It doesn't matter that she's a girl, they have all the same interests - Margot LOVES trains, I think her first word was "choo choo." She loves spotting planes. She loves watching random YouTube videos. She's super athletic and a fast runner, which delights my dad to no end - he keeps talking about how the diaper is slowing her down and she needs some REAL running shoes to run wind sprints at the local high school track. Part of being so athletic means Margot keeps still for no one. No one, except my Dad. She is most content sitting in his lap, looking through books, which she does for NOBODY else. Or letting him carry her around their backyard looking at flowers and vegetables. She loves him so much.

And I can't even explain how much my dad loves her. I never thought in a million years he would love her as much as he does. I am not exaggerating when I say she is the apple of his eye. He has so much patience with her, he believes in her, he's so proud of her. She's made him softer somehow. Just picture a 62 year old former Marine cutting up the Sunday paper advertisements to make homemade alphabet flash cards. Or how today, he sat with her for 45 minutes, looking through a copy of Better Homes and Gardens, narrating everything, telling her about every picture and asking her questions, until she fell asleep. And when I boofed the transfer to her crib, he went into her room, sat on the floor next to her bed, and went through the magazine AGAIN. It warms my heart so, so much.


Today, Margot and I took my dad out to lunch at his favorite Mexican restaurant, which is right next to some railroad tracks. After lunch, we went "train spotting," and as a BNSF freight train flew by us, blowing his horn super loud, Margot gripped my Dad's jacket and turned her head to his shoulder. "Don't worry, Grandpa's gotcha," he said. When she turned back around in awe to see the choo choo, my Dad patiently counted the train cars with her. 89 total. My eyes filled with tears, standing there with the two of them. Best friends. It just makes me so, so happy.

Friday, March 16, 2012

Friday Brain Dump

  • If you know me, you know that the Duchess of Cambridge is my style icon. And, let's be honest here: she's pretty much the British version of me (art history major? check. long brown hair? check. Capricorn? check.). So when I saw the photos from today of Cathy Cambridge in those coral jeans, I knew I had to get some. I'd been on the fence for a while, and this was just a sign from the retail gods that I needed some fun colored pants. So I just ordered these from the J Crack. They're chinos instead of jeans, so I think they'll be a little less trend resistant than the really bright color saturated jeans.
  • I've jumped on the coconut oil bandwagon. It's supposed to be magical. Well, maybe not magical, but healthy nonetheless. I've been putting it on toast, mixed it into mac & cheese, and tried it in my coffee. DO NOT try it in coffee, unless you like drinking a layer of greasy fat. But otherwise, it doesn't taste like anything since I got refined coconut oil, instead of virgin. I have yet to try it on my hair or skin but I'm not opposed to the idea. You can read more about the uses for coconut oil HERE.
  • My kid has some cute coats.
  • Everyone I know is pregnato or trying. I'm like... 5% jealous / 95% confident that we still want to wait until Puppy is 4-ish to have another child, if at all. Hey, there's nothing wrong with only children! They tend to turn out very well... ask me how I know. wink wink.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

pink & orange

Is there anything cuter than a puppy in a blazer???



Monday, February 13, 2012

Shit My Husband Says - #1

Me: (doing my meal planning for the week) "Would you eat a quinoa and brocc--"

CB: "NO. Quinoa. Ugh. No."

Me: "But quinoa was the superfood of the Aztecs!"

CB: "And you don't see any of them walking around these days, so...."



Good point, Bouchez. Good point.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

Isabel.


February 11 would have been my mother-in-law's 58th birthday.

She died on September 9, 2010 of a very sudden heart attack.

She was only an hour away from meeting Puppy for the first time and didn't make it.

I remember so many details about that afternoon at SeaTac airport. The Continental Airlines lounge. The exact things we were all wearing. The phone call to tell my parents. The coroner handing my father-in-law her wedding band. Crying.

My heart breaks that she never got to know Puppy. My heart breaks that CB will never get to see his mother blossom as a loving and devoted grandmother. It brings tears to my eyes to think that she so badly wanted to meet our girl, got so close, but never got to look into her big hazel eyes and kiss her sweet head.

All those times I wanted to keep CB to myself, that I balked at the idea of going to Mexico for Christmas, the times I considered her visits an inconvenience...................................

I take them all back.

I think about her every day and make an effort to honor her memory for Puppy. She'll know that her Abuelita loved her more than anything, and is with her and watching over her from heaven every day of her life.

We miss you, Isabel.

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

30.

My 30th birthday is 18 days away. Christmas Day, bitches. It's ok to be jealous that I share a birthday with JESUS. No big deal.

I never had a "30 Before 30" list, but I did have a few important items I wanted to accomplish:

1. Get married - check! 6/15/08 - age 26



2. Have a puppy - check! 6/13/10 - age 28



3. Travel - check, check, check!




4. Run a Half Marathon - check! 11/27/11 - age 29


It's sobering to think that at best a THIRD of my life is over. So what should I do in my next 30 years??

Tuesday, November 29, 2011